Crusnik-O2

You wanted me to make a journal so I'm making a journal.

aahahahaha

How is everyone?? 8)

I haven't been on here in forever.

In other news it's -47 degrees here today.

How have you all been over here in the weird world of dA??

Fill me in on everything that's been happening in your lives!

First of all, this likely doesn't concern most of you, and so you don't have to read this. But for those it does (the whole situation with WinterSorceress ) please read this.

I will admit up front that I haven't been keeping track of everything that's been going on (as all this pointless drama is the reason why I never come on dA anymore) but I would just like to ask that everyone stop and calm down.

Don't send anymore messages to the other parties involved, because you are sadly just feeding the fire and making the situation worse.

Kayla is extremely upset right now, and shes very stressed out. The whole problem is that she feels isolated and alone, and some people made comments about her talking about homestuck, and they were followed by nothing but misinterpretations and wrong assumptions. Which are the two quickest ways to start a fight.

So please. All I am asking is that everyone involved apologize, and move on with their lives. Continuing to message one another about it is only making everyone more agitated and upset.

And Kayla, sweetie, please know that you aren't alone. And that if someone starts ignoring you for talking a little bit about homestuck, then frankly they aren't worth your time.

And to everyone else, all Kayla was asking was that people talk to her to help stem off the loneliness that's been plaguing her as of late.

Words got blown out of proportion, and misunderstandings happened. Let's just move on and put it behind us.

Please.

I feel really bad getting donations ;a; so Im going to offer commissions

so I really don't care about price

just what ever you can give me.

Send me a note to discuss it

(Payment will be through paypal)

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I need a place to live.

I'm not joking. And if you can't help me with shelter, then I'd appreciate any money you could give me so I can eat and maybe have a roof over my head.

My mom has kicked me out. I don't know how long I have until I'm on the streets, but its when ever her fuck-buddy from England gets to Canada.

I have 2 cats who mean the world to me who I have to take with me, and I realize that will make finding a place to live harder but I'd rather live on the streets than live without them. I've lived on the streets before. Just never alone.

I live in Morinville, Alberta, Canada. It's a small town just north of Edmonton city.

I don't have a car.

I've been looking for a job for the last year.

I'm 18 years old, female, and I don't smoke, drink, party, or gamble. I'm quiet, shy, and to be completley honest, I don't know what to do. If I did, I wouldn't be making this post.

I hate asking for help.

I have 3 dollars to my name.

And I really don't want to live with a stranger, but I'm willing to if I have to.

If you're able to donate some money to help me, my paypal email is crusniko2@hotmail.com

Anything will help. I'm trying to get enough money for a train ticket so that I can get to my friends house were I can stay and put my whole living-on-my-own plan into action.

If you're not able to help with money, then spreading the word would be highly appreciated.

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I wanted to inform everyone about what was going on, and as of right now I want you guys to understand that its not a "few days until Im on the street" kind of thing. He's still saving up some money to come over here, and my mom went all bi-polar on me when she kicked me out. After my Aunt found out about what she said, she got angry at her, and now my Mom is on the other end of the spectrum, saying that if I get a job that I don't have to leave. But you guys need to understand that I can't live with her any more. For my entire life she has been doing this back and forth thing, and I can't stand it anymore. I feel like a stranger in my own house, and I haven't felt welcome here in a very long time. I've been trying to get a job in order to move out for the last year, but with 300 other kids who graduated with me (Plus the 200 in the other school) looking for jobs as well, I haven't been able to find anything.

There is a part time job near me, and I am going to apply to it. The problem is that we just got hit with a giant blizzard yesterday, and its still going strong. So actually being able to get there to put my resume in is impossible. As soon as the blizzard calms down, I'm going to go right away. I really hope that I get this job, not because it will hopefully get my Mom off my case, but because then I can finally start putting money away and build up a bigger safety net. My Mom is going to try and take my entire check each month, but I'm not going to let her. I'll give her some, sure, to help out, but not all of it.

My Mom is calm right now (and by that I mean shes ignoring my presence entirely) so it gives me a little bit of time before she flips again in order to get some money saved away, and I am really grateful for that.

The donations that I've already gotten are going to go into my savings account, and they are going to stay there until I need them. They're acting as a safety net, and you guys honestly can't understand how much that means to me. To know that if something happens, I will still be able to have something to fall back on.  While there isn't much in there, I still can't thank you guys enough. You've given me so much hope and strength, and without you I don't think that I would have been able to make it through this. I'm terrified, but knowing that you guys are all there with me makes me able to even get out of bed in the morning to face my mom.

So Thank you guys. So much. I just want to let you know that I'm okay. I don't want you all worrying. This isn't an immediate thing anymore and that's such a relief. While it still could become one at any moment, for now its not.

I love all of you, and I hope that you're alright. <3

I just want you to remember that if you need someone to talk to or to listen to you about anything, I'm here for all of you. Even if I don't know you, I will try my best to help. Helping my friends and even strangers is what honestly makes me happy. So please don't be afraid to ask.